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Cocky, smart ass, arrogant, self centered prick is how they perceive me.
They will never understand my struggle nor will they ever understand what I see.
I have this Atychiphobia that these critics can’t comprehend.
They are highly centophobic, used to the same old same old.
Critical of a person who has a plethora of insecurities.
A person who has a shield up and a has a story that is never told.
Escaped death grasp as a child to grow into potentially the greatest.
Looked down upon and counted out yet I passed every test.
Greater than anything they doubted I’d be.
Haven’t quite hit the pinnacle of success set out for me.
The weight of my ancestors has a brotha feeling like Atlas of the 21st century.
Head up, chest out, eyes to God because if no one else does he believes.
It’s funny how life plays itself out.
Sometimes you get the things you desire, While other times you just fall short.
It’s gone when you want it, But in your face when you can’t have it.
From money to women as well as family and religion.
These things come in and out of you world through an ever revolving door.
The things we desire come like the leaves on a tree scatter.
They are tantalizing for the moment full of vigor and excitement.
What you have now is way greater than the feelings you might get.
Though the temptation is greater than anything you’ve ever felt.
The pain you would cause is greater than anything ever dealt.
Think that through and understand her worth.
That thing that annoys you most should be looked at as a gift not a curse.
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Your beautiful brown skin tone radiates in the morning light.
You shines so innocently with the glisten from our morning activities.
I smell you on my skin, taste you on my lips, and enjoy you on my tongue.
You sleeps so peacefully after months of no affection culminating in one act of passion.
To some it’s just sex, to others it’s love making, I call it a deeper connection between mates of the soul.
I pray I am forever in your graces and on your mind from time to time.
As for right now I will bask in your glory and bathe in your beauty.
My feelings for you go way past adoring, if only if only I could stay tomorrow and we get this repeating because I love waking up to you in the morning…..
My curiosity constantly kills me.
Its almost torture to ones soul.
The constant thoughts of her under another,
Drive me to damn near insanity.
I know it shouldn’t because I have her forever.
Just the thought of somebody other than me inside her……..
I swear I feel like Morris Chestnut in the Best Man.
Or Omar Epps from Love & Basketball
She is mine and no one else’s IDGAF for how short or how long.
What’s mine is mine I’m selfish I know but what would you do?
I knew none of them could be my replacement girl.
I still tried cause my life felt incomplete.
I thought I found her twice but she wasn’t you.
They ended up missing the things that made me love you.
I ended up taking shot after shot for my loss.
Jealousy killed me when I saw you had “moved” on.
I wanted to show you what you were missing but it was pointless.
I still think about what they had but my pride wants them extinguished.
I’m glad we are back now but I’ll never forget our time apart.
You say I don’t know what I want.
You say I am not ready for the real you.
If you only knew how much I cared.
You are my emotional opposite.
I care too much and show it.
You care enough but never show it.
What I do to you darling nicki did to me.
That’s not fair to either parties evolved.
One of these days I hope you see I love you.
But you make it almost impossible because your death fence is always up.
You never let me in I don’t know the basics.
How can I give you my all if you give me half.
This new year I hope we can figure it out.
I know exactly what I want I just wonder if you do too.
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The troubles that my taboo fantasy cause me.
Will you be my Ariel or my Ursula, or will you leave me lonely?
Well I know you noticed me then but hows about now?
Can this go all the way or will it be a personal foul.
Listenin to The Zone as I think deeply of her as a whole.
To give her something she has never had is my goal.
Middle Misery upbringing makes this difficult.
But hard is good makes this thing intense like lightning bolts.
The things she truly feels bottled up and kept inside.
Beautiful lady what is it that you are trying to hide?
I wish I never did it.
I wish she was not the girl I choose to be with.
I wanted you from the very beginning.
Me thinking of having you would be the epitome of winning.
See I can’t be your friend because I am in love with you.
But because I am your friend this dream of mine will never come true.
Well a man can only hope and reach for the stars.
Just know I will be here to help heal your relationship scars.
I am in awe of your flaws and humbled by your mistakes.
You must be the angel God sent me through heavens gates.
You possess that elusive wifey trait.
As a real man all I can do is sit and wait.
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Ashamed is an understatement of my feelings for you.
It’s like I wanna keep you hidden and discard the truth.
Why I want to I don’t understand.
Your beauty may be lacking but you mind is beyond grand.
You have the body of an angel just right in size.
You still want me but if you only knew my lies.
I wonder would you still love me?
Would I still be your soldier, would you still call me daddy?
Only time will tell if I’m man enough to tell you this.
Will our future be grey and meek or filled with beautiful bliss?
I don’t speak on the things I know you did.
All I wanna know is if you are still his?
Were you ever his when you laid under him?
Is this something to worry about or am I still your Ken.
Are we still the match we once were?
Or is what we had just a distant blur?
I wanna knoe sometime soon I hope you tell me.
Or will I have to find this out from my Nasiha family.
I believe I failed you love.
You didn’t fail me you failed yourself.
I realize that I wasn’t here when you needed me the most.
I never expected you to be there I knew you were full of shit.
I now understand that as a woman you needed a man.
I didn’t need a man I needed you dammit.
You stuck with me through the bullshit when you didn’t have to.
As your woman I was supposed to but of course you don’t know that.
I know the song says we all try but I know for a fact I didn’t.
You tried but you quit on me and yourself when it mattered most.
I promise I will make it up to you in the future.
Don’t promise me, promise yourself that you’l do better.
Can you ever forgive me?
I already have.
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I remember meeting you at the school fair.
Beautiful brown skin long brown hair.
You were simply breath taking.
The thoughts that came to my mind were way past love making.
I just wanted to chill with you, to get to know you, to hold you.
I know I never told you but the feeling I had for you were mad true.
You shine brighter than Sirius.
Any man that comes your way better come real serious.
Your classiness matched with your intellect is astounding.
And them brains mixed with that beauty is breathtaking.
Heaven lost an angel and they can not have you back yet.
Girl you have no idea how happy I am we met.
“They got me fucked up.”
Shit just got real!
Her Shit Is Real !
Omgggggg, This Was So Fucking Legit…. Some Person If Not Already Is Gonna Be Lucky To Have Her, That Shit Was RAW!
-She Went Offffffffffff
LOVE! this is the truth!
She went hard den a mutha fucka on them.
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